This is kinda cheesy and this was a poem written by Rashad and Aaliyah Haughton and I thought it applied to Heath Ledger so perfectly. I just thought the last two lines I wrote werent enough.

With every breath like it’s the last.
With every blink like a freeze frame of a precious moment.
With every touch to record how we once were human.
We are destined to become something more.
You have fulfilled that destiny.
Like the sun you have gave us sustenance and warmth.
Like the moon, you will remain a light that will continue to shine down upon us.
I will not mourn the sadness of your death, but rather celebrate your life and be thankful that you have touched so many.
We are truly blessed to have been given a gift like you.

Um, can I delete this?

Why? It's beautiful...

I looked back and read and feel so embarrased. I was the biggest sap today. It was the 9/11 anniversary today and around one am, one of my best friends who lost her older brother, in those attacks rung me up, crying. And it left me teary and depressed and it got me to thinking about Heath and so many other people that I felt more depressed and I couldnt sleep so then I wrote this.

Its strange how so many people I have met and know who have lost loved ones always say the same thing "why her?" or "why him?". Just the why element. Why anyone? Who can we rally at when we lose someone we love? Fate? God? They're too big to take on. I think the real question isnt why, its why not? I dont usually discuss religion and spirituality but I do believe that this place is only a resting spot and we have to do as much as we can with our lives before we go. Heath Ledger did, he accomplished more in his 28 years then a thousand people combined will accomplish in a whole life time.

We can mourn and remember but we have to accept when someone you love dies, no matter how bad it hurts us, or we'll be stuck for the rest of our lives. I know I sound cheesy and cliched, and a few years ago I would have scoffed at this, because I understand the anger of when you lose someone you love, you dont wanna hear it, you feel its garbage, but its the truth and thats what makes it so hard.

I'm having one of those days where I'm stopping myself from posting because I just feel too humbled by such eloquent, heartfelt words. It feels like my tongue is tied but I just have to say something to express my appreciation. Please never hold yourself back from letting those words flow that come from deep within. Yours and other posts over the last couple of hours have deeply touched me and left me almost speechless...

Thank you

Pandora, it's very beautiful and you should not be embarrased, I really want to write something like that down but I can't, just because it really show what you feel and think. I have a lot of feelings but can't get it to paper, it very good you did and very nice to share.
I will try to write something down and maybe I have the nerve of posting it...

Springrose-aww, thank you so much honey! Thats such a sweet thing for you to say.


And thank you Jess-please share what you have btw, im sure it'll be good if it's heartfelt.

I thought it was very lovely Pandora. Thank you for sharing. you don't need to feel embarassed, especially not here