Dearest Heath,

So here I sit...it has been awhile since last I spoke to you. Sometimes i just try to pretend that you are still here..just hiding out...taking a back seat to all this, but then I remember..and that black ghost entangles me and swallows me up,again.

I just need to let you know that I still hurt for you, that I want you to still be here, with us...so badly,that it seems selflish and wrong...and for that I am sorry.

I hear your voice and I tremble inside...I see your eyes and I die a little inside..and as I remember that day...I cry...and I am always left wondering why...

So I will close this letter by saying only..that I love you...and I carry you with me everyday....you gave me a sense of self, and I thank you for that,from the very depth of my soul...

Amen to that... Beautiful because it's so straight from the heart...

Thanks for trusting us to share your deep feelings...

Springrose,

Thank you so much for your kindness..it means so much to me.....you have all become such a special part of my life..always there,lending an ear...sharing your thoughts and opening up your hearts...